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Why Bother?

That is the question that always beg.  Much of life isn’t just the lack of hard work and perseverance.  It’s more of someone who cares about you, the things that you do.  No matter the amount of output and effort you put out, why bother if no one cares?  What’s the whole point?  It’s like punching against the wind, it’s trifling. Subsequently, I realized that when I was married I stop fighting for it not just because of the lack of love and devotion but rather no one cares.  If there’s no one that cares, then what is the purpose?  Then I look back how this kind of attitude have been prevalent from  different areas of my life. I could clamor for this and that, but until I don’t change that particular behavior those things that I dream of will never come to fruition .  They are many times I wanted to give up blogging or writing.  Writing could be lonely at times.  However, I have to remind myself why I do such things, I have to remind myself that my story matters, so is yours. I have to remind myself the encouragement and hope I have given to my readers, how their lives were changed. Whatever you do in life matters, even if you look at it as mundane.  It’s just you couldn’t see the bigger picture.  You and I are part of a scene where it’s relevant for […]

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My Angst is Answered by God

You’re probably wondering why I’ve been posting a lot of profanities lately. You’re probably asking what’s going on.  Am I backsliding?  Losing faith? I am not here to make excuses nor issue an apology.  I am guilty for posting such things.  I’d like you to know that anything I’ve written in this blog that it’s connected to me, I experienced […]

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Venom

You said You don’t love me If you don’t love me Then stop hating me By hating me That proves That you can’t let go of me Somehow I love it Because you have become My prisoner The cold bars, the musky walls, the piercing darkness I am grateful that It’s all build up by you You want to break free? You can’t Because you couldn’t see The prison Solely Built by you

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Unworthy

During the course of my marriage I was a lukewarm Christian. After such a tumultuous (for the most part) relationship with my former spouse I broke down, they were numerous times at night after work that all I wanted is to drive as far I can be, instead of heading north towards home, all I wanted is to drive south, […]

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