Thursday night, I was busy at work inspecting the electrical components of a printed circuit board. My mind start to wander away like an astro explorer-continous, unfathomable, immeasurable- lights on, lights off. Journeying to a vast space of unprecedented places, it could be downright scary but beautiful. Then my mind stopped, I find myself alone, wondering, “If I’ll ever find the right one at the right time.” A soft calm voice utters, “Am I not enough?” Why desire calm and peace Why desire comfort and happiness Why are you longing for companionship A sweet embrace Seraphic, two opposite hands clasp together Seraphic, fingers braided A walk in the moonlight A walk by the sea Dinner for two A movie for both of you The fire flickers in your presence Two souls on a couch One of them is awake The other torpid Lost in the wide openness of your arms Your breath arriving on the top of her head You close your eyes In an instant, you were taken afar Breathe out, breathe in Lyly of the Valley Breathe out, breathe in Jasmine Breathe out, breathe in Gardenia Breathe out, breathe in Chocolate cosmos Breathe out breathe in Plumeria Take my heed Don’t be lost in the garden Of the lineage of Eve Stop breathing the fragrance of Affliction, agony Torment and misery Remember your travails Remember your woes The excruciating torment That jade your soul So God ask me […]
Eldy, Eldy, Eldy A screaming voice yelled On top of my head A breakfast in the morning Wondering what you’re dreaming? I just woke up here you’re still sleeping Blueberry muffin is what I’m eating While I’m drinking a coffee Filled with caffeine I know I’m awake But I see you sitting Across me, Smiling, eyes twinkling Suddenly You start […]
When you drop me off At our house I was filled with glee To finally be home Deep inside me I wanted to stay Beside you I wanted to tell you And as I ran across the road And said thank you, waving my hand goodbye I could see you against my back From the corner of my eyes There you are Your chin resting on your arms Sitting against the window of your car Staring at me with those sad misty eyes Begging to tell you, but I choose not to. Words unsaid, words unsaid It’s one of my deepest regrets in my entire life.
When you were born I was there I saw the joy in your mother’s eyes while you cry And she held you the first time in her arms She was in pain while she delivered you As soon as you came out that pain turned into overflowing joy I watch you as you began to grow Words muted, speaking and walking barely As seasons passes they become more clear You limp, then start walking, couldn’t stop talking, questioning everything Next time I know you are running, jumping Eager to learn what kind of world you are in Your parents could barely keep up with you I have high expectations for you Sure this fellow must be different Innocent and what is better than having a child’s heart That is the kind of heart that’ll listen and obey Him That is the kind of heart that knows no doubting Behold it’s your first day in school Nervous, afraid but you got through all of it Seconds, minutes, hours, days, weeks, months, years Has gone by everything seemed like yesterday The moment you have a taste of the world has to offer you The heart of a child is no more You’ve turn into something I never expected You’ve become prideful, you’ve hurt countless people With your tongue you deceived many You’ve gain riches and amass power Through oppression, repression and deception You considered yourself a god How I was disappointed in […]
A drop of blood fell on a dust But the dust didn’t know It was done out of love The dust keep choosing A lifestyle of lust The drop of blood didn’t stop It doesn’t matter if the dust went bust Then the dust got lost In the sea of lust The lust have swept Unto its heart It thrust its might Till there is no light But the drop of blood didn’t stop What started as drops Now it’s trickling It was trickling Now it’s pouring Drowning out the sea of lust It is the only one That could save the dust The dust stood up It says Now I know this is the Sea of love
There is a dust It was formed and created by breath It came to the world Innocent infamy Brought joy with more tears and pain The dust grew in knowledge Its eyes were opened Good and evil More evil It loves and hates It saves and kills Heals and destroy It liberates and conquer Servant and tyrant Its honest, a liar Persecutor, a defender It’s faithful, a cheater It trust, a doubter It is brave, a coward It cries, it laughs A taker, a giver It is humble, it is arrogant Merciful and vengeful The dust grew weak And weaker Throughout its life he never realized That it is but a dust Until it is buried Six feet under ground To be trampled upon By other dusts Who doesn’t know That they are but a dust As the old saying goes From dust you came from, to dust you shall return.
Going to church religiously Listen to the Pastor attentively With paper and pen on hand Taking notes Never miss a service Or even late Know the word of God From beginning to end Quote the word of God Like the back of hand Sing songs of worship And praises Feeling of euphoria Soul uplifting Tears roll down On cheek Feeling the love That’s been freely given Good and kind In every deed Help the needy, feed the hungry Looks like everything is perfect But somethings missing You never repented From your sins You could worship Him And read His words Love both neighbor and enemies Even forsaking the world But without repentance on your part The word of God Is of no effect At all
If I tell you that Christianity has to nothing to do With worldly prosperity Would you still wan to be one If I tell you that The path is narrow That leads to heaven Would you still be interested If I tell you That to follow Jesus Christ Means to deny yourself To serve rather than to be served Would you still Have the ears to listen If I tell you That to be a Christian You would be rejected And forsaken by the people close to you Because you offended them For speaking the truth Would you still keep the faith If I tell you That you would be beaten, Spit on, curse upon, forsaken, Jailed and even death Would you still proclaim the gospel? If I tell you that Christianity Commands you to love your enemies To bless those Who curse you and pray for those Who spitefully use you Would you think that would be insane And yet that’s what Christ exactly did For every sinner That includes you and I And every living soul on earth Now Would you still Want to be a Christian?
So much for planning So much for hope So much for faith Or is just fate? So much for understanding So much for forgiving So much for second chances Is change ever coming? Days have gone by So are months And years Decades It’s still the same thing No matter what I do No matter what I think No matter how I feel No matter how convince I am It’s just you.
Sitting on my bed Things going through my head Expectations are illusions Like a smoke, a dust, Like a silhouette, like a mirage in the desert Hoping to fill that thirst Only to find emptiness. What does life revolve around? The money, the cars, a big house Perfect family, caring friends In which I have none It’s not enough Something is missing Listening to music Stare outside of the window Having a thousand yards stare Through the clouds and beneath the horizons What is beyond that Is there someone there Or something To fill the emptiness To fill the void it created Everything to be desired Have been fulfilled and exceeded The more you have The more burden If desire is not there Would it make you stop To feel like a human What now, what then The emptiness.