Don’t Stop

I came home late one night, and found a piece of paper wedged on my door.  To my dismay, it’s a late fee for a pet fee, costing me exactly sixty five dollars, instead of the usual fifteen dollars.  Here in the Unites States, renters pay for their pets too.  I know a lot of other places in the world doesn’t do such a thing. The next morning I went to the property manager’s office, just to find out she wasn’t there, so much for waking up early.  I decided to just go back later on and did some errands.  I finally caught  up with her and paid the late fee.  Usually when we talked, it’s very brief.  Just the usual “hi, hello, how are you, bye, thank you.” It’s been almost two years since I got divorced.  I looked horrid before, during and the aftermath of that ordeal.  I never thought I could regain my composure, nor take back the essence of my life that was taken by years of betrayal and gaslighting.  Nevertheless, by the grace of God, I did and I’ve never been happier. A large amount of my family, friends, acquaintance and associates noticed all the transformation that was the result of what I went through. “Oh, you look lively.  You’re blooming.  You look happy.  You gained weight (I was scrawny).” There I was sitting across the desk from the property manager’s office, check on the […]

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Marriage is not for you..

if you don’t want someone telling you what to do. if you’re not financially responsible. if you don’t want someone to rearrange your furniture or wardrobe. if you have a problem putting the toilet seat up or too lazy to refill the toilet paper. if you loathe self-sacrifice. if you’re a burden to each other. if you can’t keep your fly closed or keep your legs closed. if you think it’s the answer to all your troubles. if you think life will be easier. if you just want to be taken care of. if your career takes precedence above all else. if you dislike doing house chores. if you love the company of your friends more than your companion. if you can’t hold your tongue. if you  dread the idea of sleeping with only one individual for the rest of your life. if you’re dominating. if you find it repulsive to compromise and work out differences. if you can’t manage your anger. if you like to hold grudges and score cards. if you hate doing dishes. if you despised cooking. if your seam burst every time a button is press. if you craved instant gratification. if you take things for granted, whine about every thing and appreciate nothing. if you don’t like to explain things over and over. if you don’t like being asked the same questions and you give the same answer, then asked the same question again. if […]

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In Your Quest For Love, Do Not Defy God

Love is the most potent catalyst in the world. So puissant that you would defy overwhelming opposition.  It has been the one single entity that breaks boundaries, traditions, culture, stereotypes, religion and nations. Have you heard someone say, “Oh, I’ll never fall in love with that guy” or “I wouldn’t touch her with a ten foot pole.” A soldier got sent to a foreign land with such contempt and disdain towards that country’s people, only to find himself mesmerize by one of their maidens, and lo and behold, he falls in love. A gal  who scoff at online relationships only to find herself embroiled in it because the words she reads on her phone speaks through her soul, pure and unheard of from any of her previous suitors. Two souls who doesn’t share the same faith.  Who were both raised to scorn at each other, that their own way of salvation is the only way.  Given the chance and circumstance, their eyes meet and an ember suddenly start flickering until it turn into a blaze that it consumes both of them, drowning, gasping for breath and the only way they could broach the surface is when they hold hands at those stolen times in their clandestine places. Then there was I, fourteen years of marriage (marrying an unbeliever, now divorced), a result of my defiance to God, saying I know better than Him, I got this I said, shut my […]

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Impress

We all want to look good in the eyes of other people.  There’s a saying “First impression last forever.”  We do it all the time even though we’re not aware of it.  At work, in your church, among your peers or your siblings, your family, social gatherings, meeting people the first time, school and lastly the one that you can’t […]

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The Struggle is Real

Looking back on life, the best times have been when I was younger. The only worry is playing with friends, homework, school, bullies and staying out of your parents righteous anger.  Getting older things got a more complicated.  I’ve listened to kids, youngsters, and teenagers  vent their angst. It is really petrifying when they say, “The struggle is real,” a […]

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Life Is Short

The day before Christmas eve, I found my self browsing through antique and thrift stores. Looking for anything that is of old, anything from the 18th to 19th century. To the 50’s until the 80’s. As the people I know from the older generation start dying one after the other. It dawns on me that sooner or later it’ll be my turn soon. I remember when I was younger, to just take my time. I had this sense of eternity and invincibility. Now that I’ll be turning 40, that isn’t the case. Those days were seem like yesterday. I found myself clamoring for the old things that I wish I could bring them back. I had this sense of rejection of the technology we use today. Life was much simpler then. I start watching classic movies from the 50’s. I watched the 80’s music videos over and over to relieved all those good memories. Women were so beautiful in that time. Very classy and tactful. You could actually tell the difference between a man and woman. They were very pretty and the dress, don’t even start me on that. Sometimes I think I could travel back in time and live through their time. Not so today. Almost everyone is covered with tattoos or piercings. Just like what my brother told me,”You’re getting old indeed.” Nowadays, I am always grasping for time. I guess you could say it’s one of the […]

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