Gratefully Satisfied

This afternoon I spent my time browsing stores to fill a couple Samaritan’s Purse’s shoe box’s which I got from my church. It is the size of a shoe box which you fill it with kid’s goodies. Anything from toys to school supplies to hygiene except consumables.  An assortment of gifts for underprivileged children for the upcoming Christmas season. When […]

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Exhausted Love

“Give love another chance.” “Not all women are the same.” “Don’t be so hard on yourself.” “Stop being bitter.” “I believe each one of us has a predestined partner for life.” I’ve heard it all.  I know I get it they want me to be happy.  They’re definition of being happy is being with someone.  If only they knew that […]

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Is God Enough?

Thursday night, I was busy at work inspecting the electrical components of a printed circuit board.  My mind start to wander away like an astro explorer-continous, unfathomable, immeasurable- lights on, lights off.  Journeying to a vast space of unprecedented places, it could be downright scary but beautiful. Then my mind stopped, I find myself alone, wondering, “If I’ll ever find the right one at the right time.” A soft calm voice utters, “Am I not enough?” Why desire calm and peace Why desire comfort and happiness Why are you longing for companionship A sweet embrace Seraphic, two opposite hands clasp together Seraphic, fingers braided A walk in the moonlight A walk by the sea Dinner for two A movie for both of you The fire flickers in your presence Two souls on a couch One of them is awake The other torpid Lost in the wide openness of your arms Your breath arriving on the top of her head You close your eyes In an instant, you were taken afar Breathe out, breathe in Lyly of the Valley Breathe out, breathe in Jasmine Breathe out, breathe in Gardenia Breathe out, breathe in Chocolate cosmos Breathe out breathe in Plumeria Take my heed Don’t be lost in the garden Of the lineage of Eve Stop breathing the fragrance of Affliction, agony Torment and misery Remember your travails Remember your woes The excruciating torment That jade your soul So God ask me […]

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Falling From Grace?

I am compelled to write this as response from a Facebook post regarding children of Christian families who were raised strictly by their parents without explaining them why to follow such rules.  Making them vulnerable especially when they go to college, not only forsaking their faith but also despising it. And what makes a believer backslide. I am not here […]

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Burning Coals

I love my job, not only because I enjoy doing it though they’re times it could be monotonous and repetitive.  But because it gives me the serenity and solitude looking through that magnifying lens with a piece of a motherboard under it.  Time and time again it is that bench where I sit with one piece of earphone plug into my left ear, and all these conundrum of ideas start swirling in my mind, like a blender mixing it  altogether.  I never knew what will be the end result, it could be bitter, sweet or sour.  The only way to find out is finish it and have a taste of it. This past Friday, I can’t help but think why still the vitriol my former wife has against me, regardless of whose fault is it why our marriage fell apart (I am not here to point fingers and play the blame game).  I do admit I  was angry and hated her with a righteous indignation.  Time goes on and went by, things became better on my part. The anger or hatred is replaced with pity. Wounds never healed but became more tolerable.  I move on and yet she still clings to that venomous lying thing called hatred.  I know that it probably gives her happiness, one way or the other.  But I also know that it’s destroying her from the inside.  What’s more dangerous is it’s subtleness, undetectable like an adder […]

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