Looking Forward

In a few hours we will be welcoming the New Year. Either we look forward or we hold ourselves back.  Either we dread going back to work or we delight in our work. Looking back, it’s been a tumultuous year for me. The divorced, the break up of my own family and the passing of my father happening all at once was no easy feat.  I was drowning, engulf in a sea of despair and hopelessness. The only one that saved me and gave me hope is the grace of God. Apart from Him, I would not survive all these.  Like anything in life, nothing last forever and that means your problems too. As I look back, I ponder upon myself, not the bitter things I’ve gone through rather  the lessons I’ve learned from it.    Did it make me a better person?  It sure did.  I am actually grateful for it because I learned more from being broken than in times of pleasure.  I don’t feel hatred for the people who put me through these( divorced), though I get annoyed once in a while.  I feel pity instead. In spite of the hurtful words and lies.  I’m always standing ready to forgive, because Christ has also forgiven me. I know a lot of my friends wouldn’t agree. Eye for eye, tooth for tooth as they say.  To think of it these are the qualities we clamor from God, from His […]

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Psalm 109

:22 – For I am poor and needy, and my heart is full of pain. :23 – I am fading like a shadow at dusk; I am falling like a grasshopper that is brushed aside. :24 – My knees are weak from fasting and I am skin and bones. :25 – I am an object of mockery to people everywhere; when they see me they shake their heads.  

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No Hope to New Hope

This year is coming to an end faster than anticipated. As I look back to all the things that I went through, both good and bad.  I asked myself what’s the upcoming year has in store for me.  It has been a wild ride for this year.  A lot of changes, spiritually and emotionally.  Going through my last-minute shopping, people look happy and satisfied, everyone is getting ready to spend Christmas with their families.  It put gladness in my heart when I see families and friends having fun and enjoying this festive season. At the same time, I can’t help but think about others who have given up hope.  Thinking to themselves that another new year is coming – that there is nothing to look forward to. I wonder if they’re dreading it?  “Another new year, same heart aches, same problems? Beat down, nothing will change.” And the defeated mind keeps playing this back to you. Or the less fortunate who can barely afford anything. Trying to make ends meet hoping that someone will have a good heart to give them gifts. Everyone loves gifts.  Who doesn’t?  Some of us will love it, a little of us will loathe it, and plenty of us will cherish it.  Most will agree that the novelty will wear out eventually like any other material things. So this season I would like to present a gift that’s been given to me. It’s the only […]

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Ungrateful Heart

I can’t help and ponder about the money I spent on a wearable fitness device, as I sat there having lunch with my daughter.  You know those thing that looks like watch than can track your daily steps, your heart rate and what not.  For those of you who don’t know, I talk to God not only when I pray but also in my daily life. From day to day decisions to the more pressing things in life. Put it this way, I talk to Him like He’s right here beside me (and I know He is.) I ask Him about pretty much everything, for every decision I make.  Even the things I desire. If there is something I can’t afford I ask Him to provide for it and He never fell short. I’ve been wanting to get a fitness tracker for a while now but I held myself back due to its price. It is something more of a want than need. Today, I decided to purchase one for myself since they’re going for fifty percent off. I thank God for providing it for me even though I didn’t ask for it. As I sat there eating, I can’t help thinking why it isn’t on sale for sixty percent off?  Think about it fifty percent is already a good deal.  That’s when I realize how ungrateful I am. Maybe that was the reason why it was on sale for […]

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Foreword

This morning I was doing my daily devotion. Part of that is reading a chapter each day on the book of Psalms.  As I read through it, I noticed that there’s a lot of sufferings and human anguish. Similar to our time. This suffering is what I’d like to share as I read through it.  It is not meant to discourage or to remind you of your failures rather to encourage you that nothing is new under the sun like the book Ecclesiastes say.  The enemy want to remind us that what we’re going is something new. We get beat down by voices that we are no good, that we are not even comparable to the giants of faith in the Bible. If you put an effort to read your Bible you’ll know that what the enemy is telling you is a complete lie. As I share this events on the book of Psalm. I’d like to remind you that David is one of them.  The man after God’s own heart, crying on his pillow every night. Remember this is for your edification, I highly encourage you to read the whole chapter.   You are not alone in this fight of life. Keep on praying, keep on crying to Him. He will come. I wouldn’t tell you this if I didn’t have a first hand account. All verses are from New Living Translation unless it noted. “You will seek me and […]

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