“I am worn out from sobbing. Every night tears drench my bed; my pillow is wet from weeping. My vision is blurred by grief…”
Who would’ve had thought that a man after God’s own heart suffered such grief. Before, I always think that the people in the Bible are perfect. As I delve and study them, they are broken and lost like we are today in some cases even worse. As I read Psalm 6:6-7, it reminded me what I’ve been through a few months back. I thought I was abandoned by God and being punished. Little did I know that it’s a lie being put in my mind by the enemy.
When I read through this passage, I was in awe and still am. Knowing that David, the anointed king of Israel, who’s called after God’s own heart. He’s been through what I went through, though not for the same exact reasons. The outcome after that, we were both delivered by God, only by putting our complete trust and hope in Him. And by obeying Him even though a lot of it doesn’t make sense.
If you’re being hated and tried look no further on David’s faith. The fact that he has numerous opportunities to do harm on King Saul, he never did. He waited on God instead to act on His behalf. God never failed him. We might think that God will be late, He is never late and I can testify to that. It is when we rely on our own understanding and strength that things wouldn’t go well, it is when we rely on our own human perception that things would turn to bad to worse. God sees things differently from us. He sees and control everything, we don’t. Our job is to obey Him no matter what the consequences. In the end everything will work our for your good and His glory. God can always turn dire things into blessings. You won’t realize at the present but as you go on everything will fall into its place.
Stop being scared, stop doubting. Start trusting in Him. I know it’s hard to do. I felt the same thing, deep in my heart I know He will never abandon me nor forsake me. It is one of His promises in the book of Hebrews. Things would’ve turn for the worse if I took action by myself. I’m grateful for all the trials and heart aches I went through because if it’s not because of them I wouldn’t be able to develop this closeness to God. I was crushed to pieces, I thought it was the end of me. And yet God picks me up and put me back up. Better, bolder, kinder and tougher. As time went by, I become to see clearly, having this spiritual insight. Now I know everything makes sense. That He doesn’t hate nor punish me. That He loves me and cares for me.
Stop turning back to the solutions the world has to offer. You know it’s a beaten path. Don’t give up on yourself because God never gives up on you.
Give God a chance.
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