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Out of the Ashes

When I found out that my former spouse has betrayed me, as I read the exchanged of text messages.  Sultry, as I would describe it, but that’s putting it lightly.  That very moment, time suddenly froze.  It’s like the essence of life in me have been snuffed out like you would blow a candle.  Gone, just like that and every thing turned into total darkness and the only thing you could smell are the smoke rising from the flame that’s been smothered.  Gone is the light that made me see.  No way out, arms stretched out with my hands and palms trying to grasp for the light.  I couldn’t see a thing.  I stumbled and fell as I try to feel the walls hoping I’ll found a way out.  Alas, she has taken my soul! Season changed and time went by.  I’ve completely lost myself and as I struggled through the darkness, I navigate through my surroundings not by  seeing but by feeling.  Languidly, I start to paint a mental picture of the whole place until I found a door but to my dismay it was shut tight like someone boarded it up and nailed it shut.  I am a prisoner of my own self. Now, I have the knowledge where all the things that would’ve made me tumble.  I know them by heart, but still I am trapped in this place and every breath I take seems like eternity.  […]

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The Unwitting Victim(s) of Divorce

Most think the one that suffer the most in divorce are couples, but the silent victims are the children.  I remember how my daughter was so confused.  She couldn’t decide who to follow, who to believe or who’s place she’s going to sleep when evening comes.  Every time I looked at her, though she didn’t speak openly I could see […]

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Don’t Worry, Pray

The title reminds me of the song by Bobby McFerrin, “Don’t Worry, Be Happy.”  Let’s face it, it’s hard to be happy when you’re worrying.  The flood of negative emotions and thoughts leave you dry and empty.  Unable to concentrate on the task at hand.  It’s like our minds have conspired against us, only to find out later that such […]

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Stolen Heart

I was lying in bed one nightIn the plains of KansasWhen I heard a voiceCame out of nowhere Like a shooting starIn the vast of empty skiesThe freezing cold rainAnd the dreaded wintry mix Could not hideIt’s lightShining so brightThat whoever stares at itWould loss ones sight I heard her voiceCalled my nameLike she’d known meFrom all the agesThat has been forgottenWhen the ancients passed. To my surprisedShe opened up and gave her trustTo a stranger like meWhom she barely knew In return I opened my heartI let the doors wide openSo she could come and goWhenever she wants Little did I knowThe moment she gained my trustThat she would steal my heartAnd I don’t thinkShe’ll return it back Stolen heart, stolen heartHow will I everGet you back She has goneTo the deepsWhere thatFabled AtlantisUsed to reside.

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No Regrets

I’ve always been ask if I have any regrets marrying my former spouse.  Could I have prevented it if I listened to the counsel of my friends and the words of wisdom from my own mother (they were all against it).  I’ve always been told that it was such a waste-fourteen years-and that’s just it.  I do admit they are […]

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Marriage is not for you..

if you don’t want someone telling you what to do. if you’re not financially responsible. if you don’t want someone to rearrange your furniture or wardrobe. if you have a problem putting the toilet seat up or too lazy to refill the toilet paper. if you loathe self-sacrifice. if you’re a burden to each other. if you can’t keep your fly closed or keep your legs closed. if you think it’s the answer to all your troubles. if you think life will be easier. if you just want to be taken care of. if your career takes precedence above all else. if you dislike doing house chores. if you love the company of your friends more than your companion. if you can’t hold your tongue. if you  dread the idea of sleeping with only one individual for the rest of your life. if you’re dominating. if you find it repulsive to compromise and work out differences. if you can’t manage your anger. if you like to hold grudges and score cards. if you hate doing dishes. if you despised cooking. if your seam burst every time a button is press. if you craved instant gratification. if you take things for granted, whine about every thing and appreciate nothing. if you don’t like to explain things over and over. if you don’t like being asked the same questions and you give the same answer, then asked the same question again. if […]

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Slippery Slope

Nothing is more painful than someone breaking your heart.  Especially if you’ve been together for so  many years that you wouldn’t even think that something stomach crunching would happen.  You would never dreamed  the idea of betrayal, separation and divorce.  Not once that it ever crossed your mind.  They were no red flags, no signs.  It’s like a flash of […]

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The Unbroken Trust

It’s been more than two weeks since my last post.  I always try methodically to post at least one article every week.  Part of it is the Christmas season, I wanted to take a break.  Part of it I didn’t know what to write nor I was able to find the inspiration to do it.  Some is just lack of effort and I wanted to spend some time reading my books since I have like thirty-five of them on my lists and they just keep growing.  And the last excuse that I have is I’m just busy at work and at home.  Only now this evening that I found time to write this. Writing has always been an outlet for me.  A place where you could journey in my world, a venue where I leave my angst, my pain and despair.  A sanctuary where I could purify myself and rid all the malice and guilt brought upon by the journey I am making in this world. It’s been a good run this year.  Soon, in a few more days, the New Year will be here.  For those who read my blog, my sincere gratitude to you all.  I’ve shared with you my failures-which for the most part dominated my life.  But in spite of it I’ve gain ground, grew up, mature spiritually.  The biggest growth I have is learning to trust God.  Letting go of the wheel and letting Him […]

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A Letter from the Father

If you could just take your time Take a break from all the grindstone of life Inundated by the fracas of unending Schedules, appointments, family gatherings Mobile phones, social medias, entertainment Never ending lists of books to read Conference, seminars, showroom expos Internet, partying, video games, movie marathons Endless chats on messenger Must comment on this and that on your media feeds How many likes, how many thumbs down The cry, the laughter, the anger of emojis Tweet, tweet you have to get that out You have ten thousand followers And they must be satisfied Because it is the drug that gets you high I heard you say, “I don’t feel God, I don’t see Him, His presence is nowhere to be found.” You are… Lost in the lights of the cities A light blinding, shimmering, captivating Must have this, must have that Must keep up with what the masses got I am within you I am around you I painted the sky blue Throw some white puffs in You could make something out of it If you could just use your imagination Like the child you were Innocent and playful Sans souci, that’s what you used to be You can’t see it, you refuse to You’d rather be in the comfort of your abode White ceilings, dotted with led’s and high beam lights As you lay down on your couch You’re eyes gazing aimlessly At that overhead interior surface […]

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